So, I like adventures. Sometimes you have to step outside of your comfort zone and just go for it. Step out of the box! You can do it! It will be okay. Have faith in yourself and trust that everything will be okay!
I was a little nervous about this weekend’s adventure. Think of it as “Okay, I am going to do this because I have to, because they want me to, and I hope this works. Will everyone get along? Will it be peaceful?” It was! At least, I was happy and certainly hope that everyone else had a good time. I was glad that I got to go on this adventure and learned from it. We learn from everything we do! So, I had to step out of the comfort zone (the box). As a side note, I really liked this pic of my cat. He is a great comfort to me and found this box today while I was unpacking packages. He hopped right in. Do not worry, he hopped out for an adventure too! I thought it fit well with today’s
babbles..err I mean thoughts 🙂
So, a long, long time ago I was approached about going to NYC as an ” early B-day girl’s day celebration”. If you know me, I said “sure, whatever. I don’t care.” I will admit I started to panic afterwards. But, ahhh what could be bad? Then, awhile after I was approached, I was approached again and told why don’t you invite someone as this person invited someone. I was happy and relieved! I thought YES! Please let me bring someone along too… to help break the ice, and also so that it would not just be the two of us. It made me feel more comfortable than just going with the one. I invited a dear, dear friend of mine (I love you Mum!, thank you soo much!) I was a bit
nervous..panic stricken about it. After an extremely tough day on Friday at work, and little to no sleep ( I was having a squirrelly, panic attack, nervous moment – I was really thinking about the adventure Friday night while trying to go to sleep, knowing I had to get up early. I was not ready for sleep as I was still trying to chill from the day, and needed to calm down.) I did eventually and sleep came. I also had other thoughts on my mind. My thoughts were will this work? please, please let this work! I did really want it to work. I am ready to move on and accept change and I have. I knew this was another way of accepting what is and another “relationship builder” for lack of words here.
So, the alarm went off REALLY, REALLY early on a Saturday morning. It was rough and I really wanted a no-alarm clock tropical island Saturday. It wasn’t going to happen. I wanted to just be by myself and have a selfish day. When I get totally overwhelmed I tend to just curl up into my shell and become really introverted and quiet. I just want to be alone and journal, think, reflect, read, sleep. But, I knew what I had to do. I hopped in the shower for a two minute “wake up to look like you have been awake moment.” Got ready, made decaf tea, and was outside waiting. My ride came right on time. I hopped in and smiled and said Good Morning. That was all I could do. In case you don’t know me, I need a good thirty minutes before I can socialize with people. I am NOT a morning person. You will learn fast. If you make me act happy and bubbly and ask me a gazillion questions when I have just woken up, it will NOT be pretty and I will become a grump. We went and picked up the other people. I sat in the back seat sipping my tea, eating my almonds (Daniel Plan approved) and was just quiet and waking up my brain. After around thirty minutes or so I did wake up (or so Mum said I did. See, she learned and you will learn too 🙂 ).
We had a nice ride and then hopped on the train to head in. Everyone did get along. Everyone seemed happy and I was happy that this was going so well. I love trains and had some great conversations while on the train. We respected each other. I sat with Mum and a few seats back the others sat. We all had a someone to chat with. I like to call it personal space, and comfort moments. I am so thankful that it happened that way. We got into the city, had a snack and walked around. It was great. We just stayed around Times Square. I love, LOVE to watch people and see how they “work and interact” in situations. I think I love the city because you see so many people and cultures that it is wonderful. I do wish we could have seen more of the city, but again we all worked together. The plan was set up to stay in that area so we would be able to see our show and then get to our dinner reservations. That is cool, I am okay with that. Whatever. Seriously, I will do whatever. No one was controlling on the trip, and like I said we all respected each other, and I really thought it went smooth.
The show was AMAZING, WONDERFUL, AWESOME! I love, love, love the book Les Miserables! If you get a chance, read it! You will NOT be disappointed. It is long, but once you start you won’t put it down. You can download it for free on your Kindle :-). I was excited to see how they were going to perform it on stage. I was NOT disappointed! Talk about BEAUTIFUL voices! It was so, so, so, so good! It was tight getting to our dinner reservation, but we made it! We missed curtain call but that was fine. I was NOT going to leave before the end. Thank you to the usher guide who told us about the alley shortcut! I don’t know your name, but thank you!
Dinner went well. It was served family style so you had to agree on what you wanted to eat. We did, PHEW! Another yeah it is going to be okay moment. The food was delicious! NOT Daniel Plan approved, but delicious. As a side note, I just ate for the first time today. And it was light as I think I ate enough yesterday for about a week. But you have to indulge, and that was what this trip was for. The reservation was made and I was going to enjoy the “girl’s day early B-day celebration!” We only had a few intense moments (think total embarrassing moment of singing happy birthday to me.) It was a bit intense, but thank you wonderful waiter. You handled it like a pro. THANK YOU for not having everyone sing. If so, I would have turned more than ten times redder.
We left there and then walked around a bit more before heading back on the train. This is where the real adventure begins. So, oopsie we got off too early. Oh well, do not panic I said, we will take a taxi. I walk around the corner and there is a taxi. I talked and yup, we made a boo boo. Hop in he said. We did. I think they know that many people mess up the train stop. He was wonderful and very nice! Thank you for staying with us while we found the car. I forgot to give you a tip and said we would, sorry. THANK YOU THOUGH! It did all work out, and added to the adventure and the memories. It made the trip much longer and I got home
late last night….no…early this morning, but what is life without detours. PLOT TWIST!!! is what I like to call them. We all recovered and we were on our way home!
So, why did I just babble on about all of this. First, to record the memories. I definitely will NOT forget this day and the memories I have with the people I spent it with. Relationships were made stronger. We all survived. Two, even though I was nervous, panicking, not ready for it….it totally worked. Then, I thought about what I learned both from the play and from the experience.
Now, we are getting intellectual here…so bear with me. The play….Les Miserables….I will try to make it short. Learn from your experience, forgiveness, courage, social justice/human rights are the themes that I got out of it. Most important, love conquers all! WOW! So much to learn from. Seriously, read the book or go see the show! The Bishop really made Jean Valjean think about the fact that he was a good person. The bishop turned his life around. We all, EVERYONE, is good and has good in them. We need to let the good show. Focus on the positive! However, in today’s society and culture, people tend to focus on the bad and want the gossip on everyone to “dig up the dirt”. This will not make the world a better place, it just creates conflict. Did jean Valjean change? YUP!!! First of all, he loved all. He showed compassion and he also let another person live, one who was out to get him and really didn’t want him to live. But again, this person was focusing on the bad in Jean Valjean..not the good. In the end, that person did not live. On a side note, the lighting on stage, when this person died there was no light. Now, if you see the show, focus on the light and the dark. If you go to church you will understand what I am saying here. Think of a theme of good and evil. Good will always prevail. Love conquers all.
Can you see the connection? I was very nervous about this weekend. Feeling skeptical. I need to love everyone and find the good in everyone. We all do. I have learned that I need to trust God, and go with it. He has a plan and it will work. I was nervous about this idea of a girls day out, but it worked. This person is really, nice…really she is. She has a great heart! Believe me, at first I was bitter, I was angry, I was mean! Give it another year or two, and change happens….when you really think about what is right and let what happens, happen… it will work. Also, you need forgiveness. I had to do a lot of forgiving to really get to know this person. I did, I am not going to lie! Would I have accepted this invitation a year or two ago… NO! I say that loud and clear! NO! I was not ready. I needed time, I needed space, I needed to do some thinking. Enter now, and it was time. It was okay. Focus on the good! The world is a much better place, if we step back, and let it go, let it be. Not to be a “holy roller” here, but we are NOT in charge of the world. We may think we are, but NOPE we are not. God is. He is not going to harm us. He is going to help us. WOW, that was a little bit of today’s sermon (extreme side note there!)
What I am not saying, is to just let anything happen to you. A dear, dear, dear friend (again, thank you Mum!!) told me about a book called Boundaries. EVERYONE should read this book! Don’t expect to read it in one night. I started it maybe four months ago, and I am still reading it. You will want to read a chapter and let it sink in. It is PHENOMENAL!!!!! It has helped me so much in these situations. I thought about it a lot yesterday. We need boundaries, healthy boundaries. This book will help you understand about relationships, and how to have healthy relationships to help you grow. Please read it!
So, in a nutshell. I had a wonderful weekend, and it worked out. I have memories. I learned from this adventure. I learned about people, about myself, and about the world and how we should be. I learned, we do not have as much control as we think we do. However, keep the faith and trust and it will be okay. Step outside that box!