Is it just me, or is anyone else having a hard time staying focused today? I guess I want to say staying focused on getting one thing done! I am struggling with that. Well, the day is almost over so let me rephrase that – I had a hard time staying focused on one task. Instead I multi tasked and now I am wondering what I actually got done. What I did accomplish was laundry and finishing a book I needed to read for a work day this week. Then, I had lots to accomplish, but didn’t fully accomplish any of them. Instead I just did little things with them.
Okay, I think I am in one of my “overwhelmed” moods. It is starting to hit me. Not much time and too much to do! Then I found out that a dear friend who was going to go with me for this work day and keep me sane is now out. So, I have to go at it alone. Which I will do, and I will survive. I have to remember that things are different this year and it will be fine. I don’t have anything looming over my head. This year I don’t have to worry about being watched. It is okay. No extra paperwork, no filling out hours. So, it will be easier. I was just looking forward to a great work day, and well it may not be. But I need to be POSITIVE, so it will be! But, I did finish the book I have to read for the day. And honestly, if I focus on what was said at the conference I went to, it will be fine. That will be my focus!
I started to pack. HECK NO! Not really, I threw a towel in a pile and a sleeping bag. That was only because I was doing the laundry and washing sheets. I was taking out sheets out to put on the bed and that is where the towels are and the sleeping bag. I should start I said. That was all I did! YIKES! I am having to pack less this year and I am going longer. The reason is the travel arrangements. But, remember laundromat! So, it is all good. Just enough for one week and then wash it all and start over – my new motto! I really do have to start writing a list though of what I need to bring. That reminds me – quarters for the Saturday trips to the laundromat!
Weed the gardens. This I had an extremely hard time with! I did some , but only pulled the big weeds. It is the little ones I have to focus on this week. I know when I get back I won’t even recognize a flower from a weed. Which will be taller? Haha! I will have to mow the lawn once more too. Trying to wait until the last minute! So, I just did the big weeds and threw the green waste buckets by the curb. Should have done more – wasn’t focused!
Finish up school stuff – welcome back letters and school supply list. I MUST get these done and dropped off at school before I leave. With the new training I am not sure yet what is needed. Again, MUST have done before I leave.
Data Team Training on Tuesday. I really do want to go, yet I am feeling like I don’t have the time to go. It is okay – hopefully I can see the data that I want to see and we actually accomplish some goals to work on this year. Hey, maybe it will make me think about school supplies to put on my school supply list!
Thank you notes – I have a list of people who helped me with fundraising efforts, gave me scrap, sent checks, etc. I need to mail out thank you notes to them before I leave. What did I do on that today? I found the thank you cards. Then I sat down to write them and was not focused. Then I remembered I am missing some addresses, so I stopped and moved on to something else….
What I am finding is when I am NOT fully focused I make STUPID CARELESS mistakes! Yup, like I left my protein shake in the blender today. The reason – I was attempting to make cookies for coffee hour. My own fault. I was by the blender making it and smelled burning. At least it was only one pan. Then I looked at the clock and really had to get a move on. Turned off the blender, finished up the cookies. As they were cooling by a fan I took a shower and got ready. Put the cookies in a bag, grabbed the cake I made last night and went out the door. Just when I got to church and my stomach growled I realized DUH the shake! The good news is people told me it would be okay as nothing perishable in it. I came home and after throwing laundry in had a glass. At least it was a good lunch (and made up for the Dunkin Donut bites someone brought at the early service and the half piece of cake I had for breakfast 😦 since the shake was home.
I wanted to get home and had a crash while cleaning up the coffee hour. My own fault as I was talking to people. Think the coffee carafe went CRASH! Heard jiggling – the inside shattered. My own fault and I will fix it. Meaning, add buy a new carafe for church before you leave so they have it. Again, if I was just paying attention and focused, the wagon it was in would not have had a crash and I would not have shattered it. Oh well. You fix what you did wrong and I will.
Things on my list to do this weekend that I never even got to – 1.fill the gas can for the lawn mower when you buy gas (heck I never even made it to the gas station!) 2. Pay the bills, especially the last scholastic book order you put in for the kids at school (thank goodness Scholastic does NOT charge interest!) 3. Trim the little maple growing in the lilac bush out (never touched it – went to the shed to get the clippers and saw the bike. Wanted to go for a bike ride, which I did later on and it was nice) 4. Actually read a book I have been trying to read. It is really good, yet I have had to read other things for work. Never touched the book for enjoyment. Have not touched the book in 5 days and that bothers me!
So, I am torn. What do I do tomorrow? I almost feel as though I need to just get away – do I go to my secret waterfall spot with that book and read? Should I bring my journal so I can just “chilax”? Would I write a better list for this trip there? Write a better To do list for the week? Or, do I hang that over my head and say when you are packed, all things for school done, and the house is clean and ready then you can go! If I were focused I should remember to work before you play. I am already thinking when I travel on Tuesday to the training I pass the mall so can pick up the carafe then. I refuse to make a trip to the stores just for one thing. I bet if I write my list I will think of little things I still need to get.
I do know that whatever I decide on, tomorrow is a no alarm clock day! Maybe part of the problem is I have not been sleeping that well. Maybe if I sleep in tomorrow I will be focused and can get a lot more accomplished. Sometimes after a messed up weird day it turns around the next day and I am focused and accomplish tons!
I am not sure what is going on. I always tell my class “Hocus Pocus, Time to Focus” I wish that advice would kick me in the ass right now! I need to stay positive so it gets done! It will and I know it will, but I want to get it done with no more problems.
Anyone else feeling as though they are having a hard time focusing on one thing? Or…is it just me being my weird self?
Off to dream of a perfect focused world will everything goes the perfect way that you imagine it will! 🙂