Today I had to go to the upcoming Women’s Cursillo Team meeting. For those of you who do not know what a cursillo is, google it. I did not know what it was either, until I was asked to go 3 years ago. It was an AMAZING experience. On the ride up, I was scared to death and having many of my squirrelly panic crazy what are you doing thoughts, but on the ride home I was super de duper excited….and exhausted. It is a ride… but a ride of a lifetime! Basically, you go away for a weekend with other women, you worship, you listen to talks, and you learn about yourself, God, others, etc. I could go on, but you have to know something – “What happens at cursillo, stays at cursillo”. All I can tell you is this – if you are given the chance take it!
I can tell you that Cursillo really changed me. I came home totally disappointed. Maybe disappointed is not the word, but you come home just emotionally exhausted. You will find that you don’t want to leave the group. You are on this mountaintop experience. But, it has to end somewhere. When I woke up the next morning I really had to think about where I was. I had to remember that I was back home, alone. My new formed friendships and leaders were not here. It was just me. WOW! Yes, I was almost in a state of shock. I felt like it ended, now what? However, I do not think that it truly ends. I think that what you find out is that you keep growing. At least I think that. Sometimes when I journal and sit back I am truly amazed at what has happened in my life. Remember when I posted the quote about going alone – you wont finish with those you started with in life. YUP, I think cursillo helped me figure that one out as well. However, back to today’s post.
I have had the honor of being on cursillo teams now. This is my second time. That is also an amazing experience. I found when I was on team last year, I grew even more. Being on team I was able to see a different side of cursillo. However, I was a table leader so I was still able to listen to the talks and talk to other women who were there to guide them along. It was a great experience. As a matter of fact, two ladies at my table last year are now on team. I was very excited and we sat together together talking and catching up on life. As a matter of fact, myself and one of them are going to be rooming together. We are excited! We talked about this a few weeks ago while I was at the convention. You become excited to see people you have met at cursillos and it is like one big family reunion. Like I said, you grow and you develop new friendships that are wonderful!
So, today we had our first team meeting for the women’s cursillo coming up this fall. This year I have a new role, which I am starting to feel nervous about. But I am trusting that it is going to be okay. I am going to just go with it, LET IT GO! See, I am using my advice. I will definitely be thinking about it while I am on my mission trip. I will also be thinking about the rollo I have been assigned. A rollo is like a big talk. People, I can talk in front of kids, I do that all of the time. However, put me in front of adults and YIKES! Out of my comfort zone. I am getting a bit better. However, preparing a rollo takes time. As I said I will be thinking about that while on my mission trip too. What I love about this years team and theme is that we are thinking “outside the box”. Oh, when the rectora said that I was so happy. She actually emailed it to me awhile back and I sent a reply saying – I LOVE outside the box! And in all honesty, I do! I think it is what we need. So, I am pretty excited about it. We all had a great time today really talking about that. We can have a schedule but what happens is up to God. We do not have control. Nor are we ever in control. Our job is not to control the candidates this weekend. We are just there to plant the seed, just like what happened to us when we were candidates on cursillo.
As a meet and greet, getting to know you activity Vicki threw us a curveball. She said okay, here it is. She said she did not want to warn us. But, we had to go around and share our favorite bible verse and why. No time to think people. I knew right away mine was going to be something from Romans. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Romans. I find myself reading parts of it MANY MANY times. I have things underlined in that book! As a matter of fact I could have read the whole book if given the time, haha. But, I grabbed a bible nearby, opened it up to Romans, and the verse hit me. YUP. That about sums it up. So that is the one that I shared. Of course I started out saying that I love Romans and Romans is the best so read the whole book. Those there who knew me, they knew I meant it haha. Then I read the verse -Romans 12:2
“ Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2
Now, just read that for a minute and think about it. WOW! This has been hitting me HARD lately people. Honestly, I am not sure why. Maybe that is why it jumped out at me today and said “read and share that one!”. I am still trying to figure it out. Really I am. If I knew, I would type it for you. But, I have nothing…nada…I just know that it is hitting me hard. There has to be a reason. I think it is trying to tell me something, I am just not sure what yet. I guess it goes back to be still and listen. I am hoping it comes to me soon.
What I do think it is telling us though is to not conform to this world, but to follow what is right. I said that today. I said how we all have had hard times, myself included. I think this verse is saying to do what is right, not what is easy. What is right is harder than what is easy, but it is right. I find myself thinking about that a lot too. We know what is right. But doing what is right, well in todays world that means not conforming to what many others feel is right. That is what I shared today at our meet and greet. Now that I am typing this – I certainly hope I didn’t scare anyone away about me haha. But, I do feel that it is true. I tend to really think about things and when it comes down to it – I have to follow what my heart is telling me. When I do that and follow my “gut” I feel so much better. Hmmm, maybe that is why I am stuck. I really do think my gut is telling me something, but I can’t quite put my head on it. Sometimes I think I know what it is telling me, yet I am scared what it is telling me. Like I said earlier, sometimes I wonder if my life is going to head in another direction soon. Maybe another adventure. I have to be still and listen. Something I hope to be able to do while on my mission trip and again while preparing myself to serve on this cursillo team.
So, what is your favorite bible verse? Why is it your favorite? If you would share, that would be great. I am really curious? This was the first time I had the opportunity to do this exercise, and I have to say that I liked it. I didn’t even have a squirrelly panic attack. I just opened it and knew where I had to go. Well, I knew what book, the hard part was what verse. But, it came to me right away. That is God guiding me. He is the one in control and he will guide you – if you are still, you listen, and you give it all to him. As a side note, a dear, dear friend of mine has been telling me this many times when I get in my panic, squirrelly, nervous, upset modes. It is finally starting to sink in. I will definitely have to tell her this. Mum, you were right as you always are! Thank you!
So, comment away people. Let’s start a great conversation! Share with your friends and have them comment. I would love to have some great, thoughtful sharing and conversations happen with this one.